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The Gift and the promise

January 5, 2009

I’m sitting here in the dark watching the clock.   Waiting until normal morning so I can make one of the hardest choices anyone who loves their dogs has to make.  To keep my promise and give the gift of goodbye.

My beloved Woo has turned that corner.  Several months ago she was diagnosed with cancer and all that time on meds she has pretty much been her same Diva like self.  Demanding, loving and beautiful.  We had a good holiday season, she enjoyed the left overs.

I spent a long New Years weekend at home.  Windy was feeling fine until Saturday night and she acted a little anxious.  On Sunday morning and afternoon she was a bit wobbly but we had a cold front come thru and I just thought she was feeling the effects but by Sunday evening things had changed.  She doesn’t seem to be in any pain and her mind is active but she has lost control of rear end.  She can stand up but can’t make it go where she wants it too go.  She is like a drunk hugging the walls and falling over and she is scared.  My poor girl is scared  because she doesn’t know what to do with herself and I’m scared that she will hurt herself and cause herself pain.

My heart tells me no but my head tells me that I have to keep the promise I made 12 years ago to take care of her and keep her safe. 

She has been the greatest gift to me and I will be forever in her debt for those that she has brought into my life.

So for now we will sit together in the dark, waiting so that I can keep my promise to her and give her the gift of peace.

Promises kept, Godspeed Dear Woo

Ch.  Keltic’s Winter Solstice, CGC

11-11-1996  01-05-09

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20 Comments leave one →
  1. January 5, 2009 1:40 pm

    *hug*
    My thoughts are with you Jinnie, as you make this decision and ultimately, final gift to your sweet Diva girl….

  2. January 5, 2009 1:41 pm

    how difficult for you. my thoughts are with you.

  3. January 5, 2009 1:57 pm

    Oh Jinnie, I’m so sad for you, and sobbing about what is to come for you today. I can’t help it, I’m just a sucker for my silly pointing dogs, and some days, it seems like just yesterday I said goodbye to my old girl Graycie. I know nobody can help with the hurt in your heart, but you know you are doing the best for Windy, and she won’t be scared or suffering anymore. Big hugs to you from across the miles….

  4. January 5, 2009 2:17 pm

    Those promises that we must keep are so heart wrenching. I am crying with you. I am so, so sorry.

  5. Baledwr permalink
    January 5, 2009 2:18 pm

    I’m sorry Jinnie, it’s never an easy choice to make

    -mandy

  6. January 5, 2009 3:16 pm

    Sorry to hear about your girl. I know you’ll do what’s best for her.

  7. January 5, 2009 4:48 pm

    Hugs to you, Jinnie…a hard decision, but one we all must face at one time or the other. I know you’ll do the right thing for her, and she loves you for that. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers today…

  8. January 5, 2009 5:49 pm

    I’m so sorry, Jinnie. Sending you cyber hugs and keeping you in my thoughts today. It’s never easy.

  9. rufflyspeaking permalink
    January 5, 2009 5:52 pm

    I am so sorry. We will be thinking of you today.

  10. January 5, 2009 9:39 pm

    Sending you much love and comforting wags; everyone here is so sorry for your loss.

  11. January 5, 2009 10:51 pm

    RIP Beautiful Woo. You are beautiful, and will be deeply missed.

  12. January 5, 2009 11:33 pm

    This is only my second visit to your blog, and what a sad day for you. As an animal lover, I can totally relate to how you feel today. My baby is 11 years old and slowing down noticably, and I can’t bear to think of that day when I lose her. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Woo today.
    Lin

  13. Renee permalink
    January 5, 2009 11:44 pm

    Oh, I am so sorry you had to reach a decision about Windy’s future so soon. I still remember her as queen of the RV and will so in the future. May she haunt you in a good way so that you are reminded of her. My best.

  14. Dawn permalink
    January 6, 2009 1:37 am

    Jinnie, I am sorry you have had to face this hard decision, but the best promises are kept. Peace to you.

  15. January 6, 2009 6:09 pm

    Jinnie, my heart goes out to you! Although I’ve never had the choice of choosing goodbye here in Niger, I’ve had to say goodbye many times, and it is never less painful, although there is so much love in letting go. This post gave me tears and made me relive some difficult moments. I feel for you!

  16. January 8, 2009 10:41 am

    I am so sorry Jinnie. :o( It is never easy to part with our beloved fur kids. Rest well sweet Woo.

  17. January 21, 2009 10:36 am

    i am so sorry for your loss. 😦

  18. Linda & Kevin permalink
    January 29, 2009 11:43 pm

    Our hearts break for you … and for us. Windy will always have a special place in all of our hearts, and we will never forget her. Our little Northern puppy who showed us how much she really belonged in El Paso by hating the cold weather even there!

    We’ll always be grateful, for she brought us YOU. We continue to cherish her brothers and sister who have not yet joined her, but we know that time is growing close.

    We love you and are here for you.

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